Tuesday, May 31, 2011

I laughed so hard..Aiiko is extremely cute.

She came home and tell me the great new that she finally bought the book on msn,

" i am home.
i bought the book already
"The monk who sold his Ferrari"
by Robin Sharma
is that right ?
... i go to the shop and tell them the wrong name
LOLz
i said do you have " The monk who own a Ferrari"
haha
>_<
"

Sorry but it really makes me laugh out loud.

Monday, May 30, 2011

I finally finish something I've been doing in a while. I asked help from my sensei to check cause I'm sure still can have improvement.

Cleaned my make up brush with soap.

Exercised.

Oh ya, morning went to Korean mart and TokuTokuya. Bought korean's pot for maggi mee. Nail Clipper and Speaker also. The speaker volume is too soft to be used. Just a cute image of Panda.

Oh! i also ate a Blueberry Cheese Muffin today. Yummy. Recently, being so happy makes me eat a lot than normal.

Nothing much today, just a peaceful day. :)

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Wakes up at 6am. Happy to received many 'likes' from yesterday post up picture. I'm really satisfied with the picture.

Went to Aunt Cat house to gather for breakfast later at Wong Kok Restaurant. We arrived around 8 something to get numbers for our table. We sat almost 2 hours for eating and chatting.

Then YFkk decided to bring us all to watch movie, 'Kung Fu Panda 2'. I'm delighted but I need go home and cook wangzi's breakfast. Luckily I made it in time, even manage to change my cloths.

After movie, we went to lunch/tea time at Damai's Fu Yen. We went back to Aunt Cat house just for chat and hanging out there.

Around 5pm, everyone goes back home.

I received fb chat msg from Elisabeth. She is my pen-pal long time ago. Both of us was happy to found each other again as we lost touch awhile ago. She even called me on the phone which was an honour, cause it is my first international friend calling me on the phone. She told me how happy she was and she's cooking her lunch. She have a beautiful four years old daughter named, Alessia. Beautiful name...I wish her enjoy her life with her family and have a great life.

I exercised around 6pm.

Cook dinner around 7pm.

And now...blogging and preparing things for tomorrow.

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I really love 'Kung Fu Panda 2' as much as the first one. The storyline really good as it teaches young and remind people about inner peace. Someone that mention in the book I'm reading. Really great stuff. I'm grateful for the free breakfast today. Grateful able to enjoy such a great movie today. Grateful I have a close relationship family.

Song with great music and great meaningful lyrics that I love

Selena Gomez: Who Says Lyrics

You made me insecure

Told me I wasn't good enough

But who are you to judge

When you're a diamond in the rough

I'm sure you got some things

You'd like to change about yourself

But when it comes to me

I wouldn't want to be anybody else

Na na na na na

Na na na na na na

I'm no beauty queen

I'm just beautiful me

La na na na na na na na na!

La na na na na na na na na!

You've got every right

To a beautiful life

( C'mon! )

Who says

Who says you're not perfect

Who says you're not worth it

Who says you're the only one that's hurting

Trust me

That's the price of beauty

Who says you're not pretty

Who says you're not beautiful

Who says

[Selena Gomez - Verse 2]

It's such a funny thing

How nothing's funny when it's you

You tell 'em what you mean

But they keep whiting out the truth

It's like a work of art

That never gets to see the light

Keep you beneath the stars

Won't let you touch the sky

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/who-says-lyrics-selena-gomez.html ]

La na na na na na na na na!

La na na na na na na na na!

I'm no beauty queen

I'm just beautiful me

La na na na na na na na na!

La na na na na na na na na!

You've got every right

To a beautiful life

C'mon

[Chorus]

Who says

Who says you're not perfect

Who says you're not worth it

Who says you're the only one that's hurting

Trust me

That's the price of beauty

Who says you're not pretty

Who says you're not beautiful

Who says

Who says you're not star potential

Who says you're not presidential

Who says you can't be in movies

Listen to me, listen to me

Who says you don't pass the test

Who says you can't be the best

Who said, who said

Won't you tell me who said that

( Yeah, WHO SAID!? )

Who says

Who says you're not perfect

Who says you're not worth it

Who says you're the only one that's hurting

Trust me

That's the price of beauty

Who says you're not pretty

Who says you're not beautiful

Who says(x2)

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Katy Perry: Firework Lyrics

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag

Drifting throught the wind

Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin

Like a house of cards

One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep

Six feet under scream

But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that there's still a chance for you

Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light

And let it shine

Just own the night

Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework

Come on show 'em what you're worth

Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"

As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework

Come on let your colors burst

Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"

You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space

You're original, cannot be replaced

If you only knew what the future holds

After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed

So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road

Katy Perry Firework lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/katy-perry-firework-lyrics.html

Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow

And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light

And let it shine

Just own the night

Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework

Come on show 'em what you're worth

Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"

As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework

Come on let your colors burst

Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"

You're gonna leave 'em all in awe-awe-awe"

Boom, boom, boom

Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

It's always been inside of you, you, you

And now it's time to let it through

Cause baby you're a firework

Come on show 'em what your worth

Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"

As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework

Come on slet your colors burst

Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"

You're gonna leave 'em all in awe-awe-awe

Boom, boom, boom

Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

Boom, boom, boom

Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

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Pink: Perfect Lyrics

Made a wrong turn, once or twice

Dug my way out, blood and fire

Bad decisions, that's alright

Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood

Miss knowing it's all good, it didn't slow me down

Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated

Luck, I'm still around

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel

Like you're less than perfect

Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing

You're perfect to me!

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong

Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead

So complicated, look happy, you'll make it!

Filled with so much hatred, such a tired game

It's enough! I've done all I can think of

Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same

Oh, pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel

Like you're less than perfect

Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/perfect-lyrics-pink.html ]

You're perfect to me

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear

The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer

So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time

Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere

They dont like my jeans, they don't get my hair

Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time

Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that?

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty please!

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel

Like you're less than perfect

Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel

Like you're nothing, you're perfect to me

You're perfect, you're perfect!

Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing

You're perfect to me.

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词:周杰伦 曲:周杰伦

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨

跌倒了就不敢继续往前走

为什么人要这么的脆弱 堕落

请你打开电视看看

多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去

我们是不是该知足

珍惜一切 就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡 随着稻香河流继续奔跑

微微笑 小时候的梦我知道

不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑 乡间的歌谣永远的依靠

回家吧 回到最初的美好

不要这么容易就想放弃 就像我说的

追不到的梦想 换个梦不就得了

为自己的人生鲜艳上色 先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色

笑一个吧 功成名就不是目的

让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义

童年的纸飞机 现在终于飞回我手里

所谓的那快乐 赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了

偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了 谁在偷笑呢

我靠着稻草人吹着风唱着歌睡着了

哦 哦 午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆

哦 哦 阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎

珍惜一切 就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡 随着稻香河流继续奔跑

微微笑 小时候的梦我知道

不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑 乡间的歌谣永远的依靠

回家吧 回到最初的美好

Composer: Jay Chou

Lyricist: Jay Chou

If you have too many complaints towards this world

When you fall down you don't dare to continue walking forward

Why must people be so weak, depraved

I ask you to turn on the TV and see

How many people bravely try hard to continue walking for their life

Shouldn't we be content with what we have?

You should cherish everything even if you don't possess it

I still remember you said your home was the only castle, you continue to run with the fragrance of the rice and the flowing river

Smiling, the dreams when you were young, I know

Don't cry, let the fireflies lead you to escape, the eternal dependence of the folk song in the country

Just go home

Go back to the happiness at the very start

Don't be so easy to give up, it's just like I say

For dreams you can't achieve, switch it for another and it'll be fine

Put some colour into your life, firstly paint the colour you like on love

Come on and smile, merit and fame aren't the goals

Let yourself be happy, this is what you call meaning

The paper airplane from my childhood, it's finally flown back to my hand now

That so called happiness, running barefoot in the fields chasing crickets and getting tired

Picking fruits without permission and getting scared from being stung by bees, who's sniggering?

I lean on the scarecrow while being blown by the wind while singing while sleeping

Oh oh, if the sunshine sprinkles on the road then I won't be afraid of being broken-hearted

You should cherish everything even if you don't possess it

I still remember you said your home was the only castle, you continue to run with the fragrance of the rice and the flowing river

Smiling, dreams when you were young, I know

Don't cry, let the fireflies lead you to escape, the eternal dependence of the folk song in the country

Just go home

Go back to the happiness at the very start

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Thank you for singing or writing these songs.

Saturday, May 28, 2011

30 Years Old and I'm loving it~

Today a busy day :) but happy day as well.

Finally the photoshoot is scheduled today. I'm happily eager waiting for it for a while already.

Waking up as usual. Saying gratitude of my life, I happily went through daily routine. Today's exercise feel great and energize.

I prepared a lot of clothes, make up and accessories. I can't afford to use their make up on important day to avoid having allergic reaction.

When i arrived there, Wendy say I'm the most 'kua chang' as I bring the most things there. I'm holding like 5 bags. LOL

The shooting session was arkward at first when I'm suppose to do the normal type of posing that i believe one can train yoga with it. The photographer notices I'm not comfortable and feel weird, he let me do my own poses and help me with more creative and fun ideas. The shoot end up more livelier and most of the people in the room was laughing at me as well. It was like ,'Do batman! Ultraman, Superman..okie now lion, spy..' it was that funny. I am enjoying that moment. I hope the photographer have fun as I did.

I only changed into 3 types of clothing because I'm taken too much of their time from the other customer. This photoshoot is going to be very meaningful for me as I will have braces soon. I may missed my crocked teeth :)

I am thankful for this given chances to have this photoshoot and it will be a greatly treasured memory.

I am 30 years old. I love the moment where I am now. I am what I believe to be. I will be what I want to be. Celebrate life~ Enjoy life~ Love life~

Photobucket

Friday, May 27, 2011

New weight today: 58.2kg :)

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Tonight will be family gathering for dinner for Aunt Yen back from KL. Boardgames arrived too :)

Aunt Yen said I look thinner and don't get too thin anymore. She said if I can't stay the weight for a year..means I'll be fat back. Let's just see...let's just see :)

I still need to practice my patience on traffic jam. I finally crack an angry mode awhile when another driver reckless cut in my line, after jamming from 5pm to 7pm...Patience, patience..not worth to made my energy goes there.

I must sleep earlier tonight as i didn't have enough yesterday caused me in not such a happy mood.

The only thing I'm proud of today is I finally forgive one of my Aunt and started to talk to her even only few respond. I guess I must remind myself I can do better and be more compassionate.

I will smile more and more to stranger everyday.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari by Robin S. Sharma

I was mesmerized by this book, The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari as I started reading. I couldn't put it to stop. My eyes keep trailing words after words. It was fulfilling as my thirst of wanting more of the information given.

Even I haven't finished reading the book, I've been sharing the book by telling other people story about it. They agreed that is it a interesting wonderful book.

I would love to quote words that keep me inspired and makes my heart filled with fire of courage.

Please support(buy) this book if can :) cause you'll never know you might need it one day.

I can't reveal all about his books as it will lost the fun of reading it. I really love the 7 key symbol of explanation which you'll know better when you buy the book to read. nyek nyek nyek...

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Quotes/Lines/Words from 'The Monk who sold his Ferrari'-

'Carl Jung once said that 'your vision will become clear only when you can look into your heart. Who looks outside, dream; who looks inside, awakens.' -pg40.

For now, what is important is that you understand that mental mastery comes through conditioning, nothing more and nothing less. Most of us have the same raw materials from the moment we take our first breath of air; what separates those people who achieve more than others or those that are happier than others is the way that they use and refine these raw materials. When you dedicate yourself to transforming your inner world your life quickly shifts from the ordinary into the realm of the extraordinary. -pg.44

Your outer world reflects the state of your inner world. By controlling the thoughts that you think and the way you respond to the events of your life, you begin to control your destiny. - pg.46

There are no mistakes in life, only lessons. There is no such thing as negative experience, only opportunities to grow, learn and advance along the road of self-mastery. From struggle comes strength. -pg.46

You will stop being a prisoner of your past. Instead, you will become the architect of your future. - pg.47

Begin to live out the glory of your imagination, not your memory.-pg.47

Once you find your purpose, however, life becomes much easier and far more rewarding. When you figure out what your main aim or destiny really is, you will never have to work another day in your life. You work will be play. pg 57-58.

Trust yourself. Create the kind of life you will be happy to live with all your life. Make the most of yourself by fanning the tiny, inner sparks of possibility into the flames of achievement.- Foster C. McClellan - pg.72

The purpose of life is a life of purpose. - pg.74

Never do anything because you have to. The only reason to do something is because you want to and because you know it is the right thing for you to do. -pg. 88

They truly believed that a day without laughter or a day without love was a day without life. - pg.90

A burning sense of passion is the most potent fuel for your dreams. - pg.91

Courage allows you to run your own race. Courage allows you to do whatever you want to do because you know that it is right. Courage gives you the self-control to persist where others have failed. Ultimately, the degree of courage you live with determines the amount of fulfillment you receive. It allows you to truly realize all the exquisite wonders of the epic that is your life. And those who master themselves have an abundance of courage. -pg 97

Fear is a conditioned response: a life-sucking habit that can easily consure your enery, creativity and spirit if you are not careful. When fear rears its ugly head, beat it down quickly. the best way to do that is to do the thing you fear. Understand the anatomy of fear. it is your own creation. Like any other creation, is it just as easy to tear it down as it is to erect it. - pg.102

There is nothing wrong with making mistakes. Mistakes are part of life and essential for growth. It's like that saying, 'Happiness comes through good judgment, good judgment comes through experience, and experience comes through bad judgement.' But there is something very wrong with making the mistakes over and over again, day in and day out. This shows a complete lack of self-awareness, the very quality that separates humans from animals. - pg.125

You sow a thought, you reap an action. Reap an action, you sow a habit. Sow a habit, you reap a character. Sow a character, you reap your destiny. - pg. 133

When you liberate your willpower, you become the master of your personal world. When you continually practice the ancient art of self-government, there will be no hurdle too high for you to overcome, no challenge too tough for you to surmount and no crisis too hot for you to cool down.- pg. 145

(mantra to recite) I am more than I appear to be, all the world's strength and power rests inside me. pg.153

to be continued...

I am Inspiration

Wow! This morning feels so good~

"You look so radiant! How do you look so fit? What's your secret?" I received a compliment from Dr. S this morning. I told him I exercise everyday. Just brisk walk will do. He said he feels so inspired by me and will encourage his daughter to do so.

Few days ago, when I went to Theresa's house for dinner...her cousin girl was so shocked to see me. "Omg, tell me your secret! How come you become so thin?" She said she will starts looking forward to more exercise as she have the free time nowadays. Not to mention, she did a great job herself with fairer skin and pink healthy lips.

Dr. M, also wanted to follow my lifestyle of exercising everyday when she saw me with this new body shape.

Jessica said she must starts to exercise as well when she looked at the result of exercising on me.

Aiiko was so proud of me that I manage to become thin and healthier. I am also proud of her that she decided to join gym to change her lifestyle also.

There's so many other people that told me I looked so different and was inspired to start exercising themselves.

The most important is I am proud of myself of having the willpower to continue exercise everyday. I will try my best to keep my words. I am thankful that my legs permit me to walk the walk. I am thankful that my heart beats like a striving survivor. Life is great, when you willing to change to a better good.

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Evening time, have a chat with Candy while we're waiting. She asked me to told her story of what i am reading. She said she loves my story telling. She can imagine pictures in her mind with my words. Well, I say thanks her for listening :)

Today also the second time for armpit hair removal..this time the machine only turn on 22 hotness. Not as pain as last time.

First time La Promesa machine on my face. My face turn all itchy later..i think something not right ...

Even though I forget to eat lunch because the two pieces of chocolate, I didn't feel hungry until very late in the evening. In a too hungry mode later, I ate two egg cake and 8 or 9 pieces of raisin bun. The raisin bun was so good, I was like okay eat one..then two..then three...then okie..will stop at four..then when i knew...i ate all. A bunch of grapes and a can of milo. Not goood. Continued with dinner, rice with veg and kiu kee soup. It's been a while I feel like my stomach gonna burst. I have make sure no more impulsive eating....

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Feeling hungry around 11:30am makes me eats my lunch early. Heavy lunch from my leftover udon mee mix beef taufu with taugeh & beancurd. Then two other small hotdogs. While feeling super full, I felt sleepy too around 2:30pm when I plan to exercise at that hour. Took nap until 4 something and directly continue my exercise routine. Getting phone calls twice asking me to go my aunt house with some documents during exercising. When i finally arrived at my Aunt's house with my chirpy greetings, guess it annoyed the people who was waiting for me. I can't blame I'm in a good mood.

Getting scold by my cousin sister regarding the sms reload system of Digi that I'm not doing my job of cancelling the process to enable her to be the primary reloader for my Aunt's phone. I went before but the system was down and the worker say will help me do it later. I trusted her and left the place. When I tried to reload with my phone it failed means confirmation of unavailable services. She got angry because she went again the Digi centre and found out my name wasn't cancelled and need me to go again. She shouted, "HOW MANY TIMES YOU WANT ME TO GO THERE AND WASTE MY TIME. GO CANCELLED IT"

I wondered, would it be easier just tell me that system failed and I need to go again? I don't deserved to be shouted like this. I forgive and can't afford to be annoyed by her because I understand she's just tired. I guess the Air Asia 10sen air flight promotion cause her to keep clicking on screen and didn't rest well at night. I just hope one day she understand, she can react better than that. I would be please to go change it again. Which that's part of my plan tomorrow. Digi centre, please do not failed cancelled again or will make my cousin sister going crazy.

Today, beautiful sunny day for sunbath my comics. I saw a lonely bird flying across the evening skyline hope that bird stay strong and continue living. I'm loving the new lotion I bought.

I'm still reading 'The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari' by Robin Sharma. It is really interesting and I will share here later when I finished reading it.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Books!

I ate Salmon Teriyaki with garlic rice dinner set (salad, agedashi tofu,soup & steam egg provided) and sushi (ikura sushi & unagi sushi). Great blessing that I'm still able to enjoy food like this.

Yesterday shopping bought a lot of great book. (Times Bookstore)

1)Gorgeous, Sexy, Rich and Strong by Norma Sit
2)How to be an Irresistible Woman by Lisa Helmanis
3)Life Lessons for Mastering the Law of Attraction by Jack Canfield and Mark Victor Hansen
4)You Say More Than You Think by Janine Driver

Today shopping again. (Popular Bookstore)

1)The Secret by Rhonda Byrne
2)The Secret - The Power by Rhonda Byrne
3)The Art of Conversation by Catherine Blyth
4)Body Language by Susan Quilliam
5)How To Read People Like A Book by Murray Oxman
6)A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle
7)The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari by Robin S. Sharma
8)How To Develop a Super Power Memory by Harry Lorayne

I will have fun time reading them :)

Just let you know my favourite books so far is by writer Leil Lowndes.

Her 'How To Talk To Anyone' is my favourite :)

She did a great job writting all her books.

I have two friends that I recommended her books, found love by reading 'How To Make Anyone Fall In Love with You'. I hope the other two soon will finish reading the book and found love too.

Single?

Today my long lost pen pal from Italy, Elisabeth Bianci found me through Twitter. Funny...but glad :)

Grace told me a great news about her relationship going serious! I'm happy for her :) Her dream comes true!

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Single.

My friends love to ask me one question when they long time didn't chat with me or saw me... "Did you found anyone special? or Have you got boyfriend now?"

When I'm answered, "Oh, I'm single"

Then immediate respond is "Oh, You're so lucky to be single"

Oh?

Lucky to be single?

Then they will also say, " You got all the freedom you can get"

Freedom...

Oh in a theory, single = freedom.

How come I still always feel freedom when i date someone last time? I never felt bound to something before. If dating a guy will loose freedom, it is something considered weird to me. I understand respect of the other half when we can't do something, but i'm sure the other half will also understand when you decide to do something.

I'm not sure if i'm single by choice. I would just say, I haven't meet the special someone makes me feel that yes, he's that person. Or even make me feel that I can try and see how it goes...

Yes, I did stubble on some unfortunate series of guys before but no thanks for just hanging on to them so I won't be lonely.

I think nobody would say no to love, at least not me.

I do hope I will meet someone special in future at the right time, right moment, right place.

Say hope to love, say yes to love...

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Welcome Trinette

Welcome welcome!

Thanks for joining the blog :)

Terima kasih.

Xie Xie.

Arigato gozaimasu.

Kamsahamida.

To Chia~

Friday, May 20, 2011

Peter, my godfather

Today, another beautiful day.

Because, I told another person of my dream. Another important person in my life, my godfather.

I didn't expect such a good respond from him. He didn't even doubt or laugh or think i'm stupid. I can feel he believes in me and truly support me.

He said words that i never heard before from others. He said if other people told the same thing to him, he will just laugh and think they are saying for fun and won't bother about it later on. He said I always do what I have said. Means taking action from my words. I really didn't know i shown such a characteristic to him. I think he truly cares.

Thanks, my dear godfather, Peter for giving me such a blessing of care and faith in me.

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After paying some bills, i went shopping. :p

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Today, trying my best to be positive though it's still hard to control my feeling sometimes. Finally understanding why I was sad and angry. I'm trying to remind myself how much I love that friend, i think sometimes i don't have control over things. I've decided to let go. If our path crossed again, maybe fate will make us become friends again. I just hope one day that friend can see how talented and wonderful needed to believe. I will still love from afar. Goodbye now, my friend.

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"So my dream isn't to become the "best", it's to be someone who I'm not ashamed to be." - Key

I found these words very inspiring. I am also just trying to be myself that not afraid to show my own colour and believe anymore. I don't want to live and say 'I regret/Why I didnt'/If i just could'...

I wanna able to say, "Yes, that's me!"

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Thanks, Beryno who helped me cleared my comics away.

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I finally hit 58.9kg today, the lowest so far...

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Yesterday event was all about boardgame again. The world of warcraft from 2 something started end at 8 something. After everyone ate the dinner I cooked, Vinegar Pork Leg and Fried Veg. We continue play Puerto Rico. Last Game, Dawn Under started around 11:30 to 12:15am...

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Today, finally got time to cook the seaweed that I've planned to cook yesterday. Taste okay.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Keep Reaching for the stars

Dear Daughter,
Keep Reaching for the Stars,

Day by day, year by year
I've watched you grow...
I've watched you grabbing hold of life
with grace and determination
making it your own
molding your dreams into reality
I've watched as you fill the brim
with happiness and pride
with each new accomplishment
I have seen your heart broken
and felt your pain
as the tears spilled from your eyes
I know the sadness that consumes you
when those who are suppose to care
belittle your ambition
trying to take control
of your destiny
I've seen traces of doubt
begin to invade
tearing at your self-confidence
and I begin to worry
that maybe this time
you won't heal
But after allowing yourself
to feel the pain
to cry the tears
you do heal
Stronger and more determined
you tighten your grip on life
leaving the negative behind
I gladly share all this with you
My daughter
you are a survivor
and you fill me with pride
- Sharon M. McCabe

Keep reaching for the stars
and ultimately
they will be yours

Monday, May 16, 2011

Woah, i was having headache yesterday playing boardgame. Not good. Luckily rewash hair makes it feel better a bit. I think my body and head have a lot of wind inside. Why ah? hmm...

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Today, preparation for tomorrow boardgame of World of Warcraft, I went to buy ingredients to make Vinegar pork leg (猪脚醋). I think I bought too many liao. Can feed 10 people..so far only 2 confirmation to come.

Finally, bath Wangzi after a long long time because he smell too bad and will be arkward if everyone can smell him too tomorrow. Wash downstair toilet and guest room toilet. Eat liao lunch now say it's almost evening liao and need to cook dinner. Time flies today!

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Saturday

Beautiful Saturday~

Great to have a cup of lavender tea and relax..too bad i didn't have in stock.

Normal routine in the morning.

2pm, herbaline treatment.

Candy and Wendy was shocked to see me dressed up. They keep praising I was very good looking, that I should wear like that more often. Maybe I should...

Normally, I'll just wear a shirt and jeans. Today is just my tighter shirt and tighter pants. Even more cover up. Long sleeve stretchable shirt with bling bling bambi image at front. Zebra stretchable long pants. To be exact. With a wing bling bling necklace. Put some gel on my hair. Only put on some lipsticks.

Later, we to 1B to buy flowers. I wrapped the flowers myself. Found out it's not as easy as it seems. LOL. They sell RM1.50 for each flower, RM6 for each wrapped flower. The girl charged me at RM36. Weird, because 9 x RM1.50= 13.50. Paper RM5 + RM4 = 9. Ribbon RM3. White little flowers RM2 x 4 = RM 8. RM33.50! RM2.50 is kopi o money eh..nevermind lol

The flower is for my ex Mrs boss. She have a baby boy this morning. It's her dream to have a child. I guess it's dream comes true for her.

Stella spends me lunch. Though I know i'm not suppose to eat oil mee. Well, they really taste not bad. She says I looked like only around 40-50kg. I told her I'm still 60kg. Guess my real weight is greatly covered by my clothing that I'd choosen.

Found out that she also likes BIG BANG, especially G-Dragon. I asked her what's the reason she likes him. She answered it's his music. I guess she's a better fan than me. Lol...I must admit I likes his look at first to attract me to know him better.

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Suddenly, I was having conversation with a friend in msn.

Kinda told him what i wanted to do with my life.

He kinda mentioned I need to super beautiful, or with many talent like singing, etc.

Well i told him,

30% is own beauty + 30% characteristic + 30% talent/ hard work + 10% luck/planning

and

i only have my heart, my true heart all that i can give...

but next time

I'll say to anyone think I'm not beautiful enough..

Well,

You can just stop looking at me.

Much Better,

If you can just start looking at my heart.

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Dare, thanks for the chat. Really reminds me I can be stronger and stronger everyday. Love you my friend.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Greatest Dream Last Night

Good Morning~ I had the greatest dream last night..feel so wonderful~♥♥♥

because..i first time dream of GD. The story I shall keep to myself, just that I can feel his warm embrace(maybe it's my blanket & bolster, lol). I just can't help stop smiling when I wake up in the morning ^^

I'm starting to think I'm getting crazy with all these fantasy. GD is not part of my daily life now. I never even meet him in real yet to know what feeling I will get. I must start focusing on my own life. Focus!

....thinking of his face just make me feel smitten.

Focus! girl, Focus!

Ok..back to my life ^^

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

想哭就哭,要笑就尽情笑。
不要因为世俗的“大众眼光”而压抑了自己的真性情,
别把自己压抑成哭笑不得的疯子。。。anonymous.

Beside this..I'm truly blessed that I have many true friends in my life. Though most of them now are very far away from me, I hope they can still feel my love signal sending to them from time to time. I wish them well in life and faith I have for them to live their own life with happiness and health.

Gotta love online as that is how i able to contact them easily. Gotta love technology~

Called Theresa just now asked if she had eaten her birthday bird nest gift from me. She jokingly scold me for stealing half of the gifts(one boxes got six bottles). Good things must share mah...hahaha..i say I'll buy more for her next time. She also say i should stop nagging her about sleeping early. I did? Did I? Lol, maybe I did...We promised our next date is going eat dim sum at wong kok, the now current trend for breakfast at KK.

So, my lovely dearest online bfriend Aiiko got sick liao eh..get well soon oh. Don't pops too much pills ^^

Monday, May 9, 2011

Today, as usual go for my treatment. I saw the new advertisement about free photoshoot if i spend above rm250. The Manager, Wendy salesgirl skill kicks in and made me spend around RM321 for 2 boxes of cell moist serum & a hand cream. I'm testing the serum and cream now and will know the result in a week.

Today i saw Ben posted, "The hardest thing in life isn't finding the one you love. It's making the one you love... love you back.",said Anonymous.
I think this is great. Able to love someone, to feel alive and knows that your heart still can feel. To able receive love in return of course is more great..but one only can believe :)

Candy, the beautician that serves me is a cool lady. She began to be more talkative after I told her that I likes to chat, at few sessions earlier. Today, I learned that she plays guitar and was in a band before. She even dyed her hair pink before, whole head. Stunning! I also finally showed her my history pictures. She gave few compliment that I'm thankful for. I asked her to invite me her performance if she ever decided to play for a band again. Really friendly girl.

I'm thankful for the blessing I have today. Glad to know Candy more personally. Believe my skin will completely heal to normal. Thankful that I'm feeling healthy today and able to exercise as usual. ^^

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Happy Mother's Day!

Happy Mother's Day to my dear mom and all the moms out there!

May you get lots of love today~

Love,
Bethamy

Saturday, May 7, 2011

I Love you too Grace ^^ Thanks being my friend

Today, grace and i chat back about why last time she kept trying wanna be my friend? We're the only two girls in the classroom, all others were boys. I thought that is the reason she wanna be close to me. At first I really don't wanna bother about her. But she kept coming and coming. Greet me happily, ask me out and keep follow me around. At a point ...i think she was bubble gum.

Today, finally I asked her about this after 12 years of friendship...

grace says:
coz i think u r cool!
its the personality.
u do things that u like.
n not bothered at how other ppl think.
like your hair.
your iguana.
think its just that not everyone will dare to do it
u r just one out of your kind

Wow...it just knocked me out. She thinks so highly of me. I never know I was labelled cool in someone's dictionary. weird most of the time i heard. Yet, i understand now that I used to be so brave. I now believe more that I am me, one and only me.

加油!加油!加油!!!! 人生是美丽的!

Friday, May 6, 2011

Today, finally most of the armpit hair was gone. The beautician says I could try pulling see if it's easy to pull out. It was! I pulled most of them but some still left holding strong.

My period came but i forget about it and drank a cold milo. =.=

I haven't exercise yet today. Promise to do it around 7pm.

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I predict that Jung Il Woo will become a very famous & high soared after actor that chosen to become main lead.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Better me

A lot of mixed feeling today. Although trying to keep positive most of the time, sometimes there's still things that happened I suppose can react better.

I must learn not to bother people that is so insane that wanted a car park so badly.

I must really learn to control my craving for food.

I must believe I can do better and be better towards other.

cos

I am me that believe I can be a better me.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Boardgame~

1 & 2nd May, busy playing boardgame with Siang, DY, Amy, Ah Lang, Darwin and KC. The first day from 9 something pm played until 3 something in the morning. Then we continued playing again from 1pm onwards till 11pm. So happy that they come to play at my house. At least the house is filled with people and laughter.

I didn't manage to exercise on the 2nd March. Missed one day. Now my record is break. Maybe need to recount again from today?

Finally I called Gdex regarding the parcel to Korea. They resubmit to Fedex to send to Korea. I finally got the tracking numbers and found out the receptionist/front desk already signed for it. Hopefully whoever received it please pass to GD's hand. Adam said they will need to open slowly all the fan's parcel/letter before they send to appropriate receiver. I don't know when mine's gonna be opened, and I really hope it reached his hand. Therefore I pray...