Are You Waiting?

Today I feel like talking about waiting.

Are you waiting for something great to happen in your life?

Are you waiting for the right prince charming to sweep your feet away to forever happy land?

Are you just waiting, because you don't know what are you waiting for?

One of my friend describe me as 'waiting for mr. right.'

I can't debate on his word, as I don't know if I am really waiting or I'm not. I don't know what kind of signal or words that I'd said that makes him look at me that way. I didn't press the topic further as I will sound like I'm trying to proof him wrong. What's with right or wrong, when even I don't know if I'm really waiting for mr. right?

Some people need inspiration to start something.

Some people need a push to do something.

All that I know, if i sit there do nothing, nothing will ever comes out of it.

Two days ago, I was just sitting infront of my pc again, playing games. It's so hard to stop at that moment. Suddenly, today...the thought enter my mind. If I sit there playing games, what will i get? Just level after level, item after item. I'm very scared I'll spiral back into the game days when I want to live the game life more than my real life.

I need to get back on my feet. I need to do the things I promise myself to do everyday. Once again, I forget about how precious is the time. I know doing what i did everyday might not get to my dream goal but who knows? Perhaps, playing game was the sign again I'm trying to run away.

All that i know, I am not waiting for something to happen. I need to make it happen.

Exactly how i need to get to my goal, that's the recipe that I don't have yet...will try even error and failure, perhaps one day, I have clear road of successful recipe to my dream goal.

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update on 26 July 2011.
I finally take my courage to ask my friend why he thinks of me as waiting for mr right and i got my answer.

he said,' imho, u seems like avoiding meeting guys or go pak tor. A person who likes to be conservative. It's either that or you are afraid of something. Maybe because of the past, maybe of the future.'

I'm so relieved.

At least it's not something from my body language or signal that i send, telling that kind of signal. It's just that he doesn't see i go meet guy or go paktor. LOL, adui...i don't go and tell people i got meet new guys or go date kind of person. I understand why he thought so as I never told him about my love life. He never heard i got any bf before. When I get to know him, I think around the age of 23. I don't talk to guy about this kind of subjects unless they asked.

I finally get to explain things to him, and he finally understand more now. Clear the air. yeah~