Inner war. Good thoughts vs Bad thoughts.

Sometimes I fall into bad thoughts that like a deep well that hard to climb up.

When I did climb up, my world feel better for that moment...but the moment last for how long, it depends.

My heart knew I couldn't afford to feel bad or depress. My thoughts just flow freely affecting my emotion. It's really hard to control sometimes.

For everyday, I fought my inner bad thoughts, because I want to be better. I will be better. I must be better than yesterday me.

I always forget that I must stay strong after what I've been through. Mind is a fickle things sometimes.

I really appreciate for those who listen to me, trying to understand me and even help me through my phase. Especially Aiiko, forever lending me her ears and heart's space. So I couldn't let her down.

I must not forget, I am already lucky and should be happy for who I am now and for what I have, especially people around me.

Future, here I come :)