我突然很感性的想写东西。

I wanted to update this blog for the beautiful 3 months i spend at KL before this. Sorry that i never got to write it yet..will try to write about it soon.

Now, i want to write about this exact moment about what i feel.

I am currently studying korean language at Korea Plaza, KL. I just realize it an only 10 classes course for level 1. I really need to appreciate more the class by studying more everyday but i seems to be slow and catch up slow. But it's a good start that I have learned and i won't stop learning till i mastered it.

My dream goal. It feel so far...untouchable. Do i really want to reach there anymore? But i can't forget the feeling when i am hopeless without any dream at all. I was a really scary place that I don't want to pay visit anymore. Maybe I need more courage and hope at this moment to know that I will reach there somehow. i believe god only give me the best, more than i ever wanted. And so with this believe, everyone that i met, everything that i go through must have a reason and lesson to learn. When I doubt myself, i hate that i am feeling that way. Still, there are just times when i'm feeling low that i'm trying very hard to pick up myself. I envy people that have strong faith and emotion that they able to control well. I know i have more yet to learn.

Love. Talking about love. it's been a real long time that I ever had a relationship. There are times that I think i don't need that kind of love, but there are times that I wished i have love so I have someone to hold to. I don't know if i ever find love again. Will i exchange dream for love? I don't know...maybe..maybe not.

What I can do with my life since i've decide to live it to the fullest. Pardon my greediness towards life, that have not taken duty responsibility like other people. There are so many words that i can't just utter out like this. i wish for people to love me, understand me and care for me for real. Hope i get everything that i wished for.

I still want to thank people that still in my live that helped me to live until today. Without them, i think i have fallen long time ago. Thank god for blessing me.