Disappointed

Today...

the most unwanted things happened.

I saw a fan cam video of GD smoking.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MDi0OfqnIs0

It's not like what GD does is my business. It's his life, of course he have his own choices to make and do what he likes.

Just that, I can't help feeling sad and disappointed. My dream image of him of total perfect 100% was crushed. I knew from his song 'a boy' lyrics that his room were full of smoke and the music video from 'she's gone', he's smoking. I thought all that were just..acting or lyrics(wishing it wasn't total truth).

Some people say, well it's just smoking.

To me, I like a person for who he is...and my choice is never to like a smoker anymore.

Now, I couldn't help by keep thinking of that smoking image. All his smiles, his beautiful character and face all gone.

Well, i think it's good also for now. It's time to focus back on myself. Really super focus on what i want and what i need to do. Been scrazy over GD since I first saw him, i still love him from inside of my heart. Just at this moment, I can't help feeling what I am feeling. Who knows I'll might forget that or don't even care...time will reveal as it goes..

Still, I wanna thank him for making me feel the 'love is in the air' ...it's what makes everyone happy and continues on life everyday.