We live in a cruel world as many people were saying...
Everyone was trying to live to meet the expectation of others.
Like the perfect body shape to attracts other people.
A beautiful face so that people likes you more.
Money to spend others so they don't think you're frugal.
......
I used to think, that one day someone special will see the beauty of inner me rather than the outside look I shown. I have transformed once to truly show the inner me by dressing what i like after an old friend told me don't care about what other people think of me. But I think i took it too far as i showed too much of me. I dyed my hair pink and blue. I wear my own kind of fashion that people think i'm crazy and some even pass me by and say 'crazy!'. I wanna have chameleon as pet and end up having an iguana, which people think a kind of pet a girl normally shouldn't have that time. I am just being me. Then I started to hear gossip that a close guy fren of mine that time was saying i'm trying to act cute..it was all pretense. Hello! I am 18 that time...it is against law being cute? fyi, i am not acting! Do really I need to live a certain image to let other people be more happy? As time past, I become more indulge in food and tone down myself just to fit the other normal people. Then i end up being a fat, unhappy me. My cousin jess asked me, what happened to my colourful cousin sis, where is she? I just feel that she's lost in somewhere at that moment.
Now, do i even need to look like super hot sexy model going downstair to throw rubbish? I learned that people only look at your outside image first before they decide to get to know you. I still think it's vague to judge people by the cover, but saying this also knowing..we don't have the time to totally read all the book's inner story so we still choose by looking outside first unless recommended by others. So, yes..i think i need to present a more subtle but still very me in bits and pieces here and there. I still think I don't need to change for anyone but myself because I want to get to know more people in this world. I want to attract friends and people so that they will take more interest in knowing the real me.
For those friends that stayed with me in my life journey and bonding strong. Thank you very much for your loving support and care. I seek our relationship continue stronger than ever. For new friends that i will meet, i welcome you to my life and hope to share journey together.
Thanks again for those people that love me, the real me.
Friday, April 29, 2011
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Get shock by electricity~
Today is the second time I tried the machine with electric thingy. I sign for the whole package (10+1) deal. The girl say I only can withstand the power of 2,where others normally is 5. Means my body is full of not good de something. Ask me to go step on grass. But i really dun like naked feet stepping on grass..no way.
I don't feel as thirsty like the first day, but i dunno what time I will wake up in midnight feeling thirsty like the fist time.
The result today, is my arm looks lighter and not as rough as before. It's getting result. I believe what cream can't heal..machine can. It will heal my arm to normal state as before. I totally will believe in it.
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Siang back in KK today and I'm late for fetching him as I was doing facial as add on.
I am happy to see him but he look unhappy. Some negative energy was surrounding him.
He was back too a chubbier state. He wasn't happy when I asked what happened...as he was my hero to diet. Maybe I shouldn't ask him anything.
I keep on prying, end up he said that he didn't exercise anymore. From 4 hours a day exercising become none exercise.
The saddest thing is his skin on his face look so tired and dry. I asked him why he didn't use the mask he bought for me and himself last time at taiwan..he just say dunno.
I think whatever it is..he's just unhappy. I hope with all my blessing he'll be happy soon.
Siang, I love you oh...must take care of yourself well.
I don't feel as thirsty like the first day, but i dunno what time I will wake up in midnight feeling thirsty like the fist time.
The result today, is my arm looks lighter and not as rough as before. It's getting result. I believe what cream can't heal..machine can. It will heal my arm to normal state as before. I totally will believe in it.
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Siang back in KK today and I'm late for fetching him as I was doing facial as add on.
I am happy to see him but he look unhappy. Some negative energy was surrounding him.
He was back too a chubbier state. He wasn't happy when I asked what happened...as he was my hero to diet. Maybe I shouldn't ask him anything.
I keep on prying, end up he said that he didn't exercise anymore. From 4 hours a day exercising become none exercise.
The saddest thing is his skin on his face look so tired and dry. I asked him why he didn't use the mask he bought for me and himself last time at taiwan..he just say dunno.
I think whatever it is..he's just unhappy. I hope with all my blessing he'll be happy soon.
Siang, I love you oh...must take care of yourself well.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Quotes
Sunday, April 25, 2011. 10:36am
Aiiko : " There is nothing to be fear of, as long yourself feel the right beat."
Monday, April 26, 2011. 11:50am
Aiiko :" The Power of attraction is yourself are the power~!"
Monday, April 26, 2011. 12:11pm
Aiiko: " If someone ask you how long can you love me, you should reply that as long as my heart is beating."
The best i like so far ^^
Wednesday, April 27, 2011. 9:50pm.
Aiiko :" Is never too late to decide to act, as long you set personal targets and give yourself time, don't rush. The key here is to be patience, look in positive way, praise yourself when you suceed, forgive yourself when you slip, look at the big picture. I am sure the succeed is within your hand."
Aiiko : " There is nothing to be fear of, as long yourself feel the right beat."
Monday, April 26, 2011. 11:50am
Aiiko :" The Power of attraction is yourself are the power~!"
Monday, April 26, 2011. 12:11pm
Aiiko: " If someone ask you how long can you love me, you should reply that as long as my heart is beating."
The best i like so far ^^
Wednesday, April 27, 2011. 9:50pm.
Aiiko :" Is never too late to decide to act, as long you set personal targets and give yourself time, don't rush. The key here is to be patience, look in positive way, praise yourself when you suceed, forgive yourself when you slip, look at the big picture. I am sure the succeed is within your hand."
Disappointed
Today...
the most unwanted things happened.
I saw a fan cam video of GD smoking.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MDi0OfqnIs0
It's not like what GD does is my business. It's his life, of course he have his own choices to make and do what he likes.
Just that, I can't help feeling sad and disappointed. My dream image of him of total perfect 100% was crushed. I knew from his song 'a boy' lyrics that his room were full of smoke and the music video from 'she's gone', he's smoking. I thought all that were just..acting or lyrics(wishing it wasn't total truth).
Some people say, well it's just smoking.
To me, I like a person for who he is...and my choice is never to like a smoker anymore.
Now, I couldn't help by keep thinking of that smoking image. All his smiles, his beautiful character and face all gone.
Well, i think it's good also for now. It's time to focus back on myself. Really super focus on what i want and what i need to do. Been scrazy over GD since I first saw him, i still love him from inside of my heart. Just at this moment, I can't help feeling what I am feeling. Who knows I'll might forget that or don't even care...time will reveal as it goes..
Still, I wanna thank him for making me feel the 'love is in the air' ...it's what makes everyone happy and continues on life everyday.
the most unwanted things happened.
I saw a fan cam video of GD smoking.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MDi0OfqnIs0
It's not like what GD does is my business. It's his life, of course he have his own choices to make and do what he likes.
Just that, I can't help feeling sad and disappointed. My dream image of him of total perfect 100% was crushed. I knew from his song 'a boy' lyrics that his room were full of smoke and the music video from 'she's gone', he's smoking. I thought all that were just..acting or lyrics(wishing it wasn't total truth).
Some people say, well it's just smoking.
To me, I like a person for who he is...and my choice is never to like a smoker anymore.
Now, I couldn't help by keep thinking of that smoking image. All his smiles, his beautiful character and face all gone.
Well, i think it's good also for now. It's time to focus back on myself. Really super focus on what i want and what i need to do. Been scrazy over GD since I first saw him, i still love him from inside of my heart. Just at this moment, I can't help feeling what I am feeling. Who knows I'll might forget that or don't even care...time will reveal as it goes..
Still, I wanna thank him for making me feel the 'love is in the air' ...it's what makes everyone happy and continues on life everyday.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Today is my first treatment of light hair removal for armpit treatment. It's good that I found this option at the right time. I'm happy. I don't know about the result yet but thank you for giving me a hope that I'll have hairless and fairer armpit. So, I can finally wear sleeveless.
The process was slightly nerve crackling tingling. As if someone was having fun poking me with needle and I can't poke them back, lol.
I believe my armpit can look great in shortest amount of time. :)
Second treatment is for my arms.
I don't really know what machine they are using, but something to do with electric i guess. I need to hold two iron bar that emits electricity that numbs my fingers. My other arm was stick with something that feel like poking massage pad.
My right arm was a result of not listening to doctors advices on right amount usage of medicine. That medicine was strong end up causing my skin breaks because I over used. Past is past...what i can do now is to believe it can be healed even it's after 12 years. I believe the machine can do the miracle for me and I will promise myself everyday use lotion from now on.
Yes, I dislike putting lotion all over myself after every time i took bath. Why?
I don't like the creamy and sticky feeling. I love the freshness feel of the skin after bath.
Hope that all i can now is witness miracle that i believe will happen de...
p/s: ah..i went to cut my hair oso..
The process was slightly nerve crackling tingling. As if someone was having fun poking me with needle and I can't poke them back, lol.
I believe my armpit can look great in shortest amount of time. :)
Second treatment is for my arms.
I don't really know what machine they are using, but something to do with electric i guess. I need to hold two iron bar that emits electricity that numbs my fingers. My other arm was stick with something that feel like poking massage pad.
My right arm was a result of not listening to doctors advices on right amount usage of medicine. That medicine was strong end up causing my skin breaks because I over used. Past is past...what i can do now is to believe it can be healed even it's after 12 years. I believe the machine can do the miracle for me and I will promise myself everyday use lotion from now on.
Yes, I dislike putting lotion all over myself after every time i took bath. Why?
I don't like the creamy and sticky feeling. I love the freshness feel of the skin after bath.
Hope that all i can now is witness miracle that i believe will happen de...
p/s: ah..i went to cut my hair oso..
Monday, April 25, 2011
Parcel
This morning, I received a phone call from KL Gdex teliing me that my parcel will not be proceed because I don't have receiver phone number for the parcel.
I don't know how I kept my calm and in my mind really have the thought that my parcel will succeed arrived at GD's hand no matter what.
I nicely tell the person on the phone that I was aware of the problem previously but KK side worker decided helped me when I told them that I decided to try my luck for the parcel to arrive at YG entertainment's company.
Through explaining and understanding, the worker nicely said that he'll call back and see what he can do.
In my head suddenly I thought of Adam. Then I quickly sms Adam for help that I really couldn't find YG entertainment number online by myself.
Adam already did miracle for providing me the correct address for YG entertainment, so I must try my luck.
The second time KL Gdex called back saying they really couldn't proceed my parcel again like the first time and telling me that the parcel will be send back to KK.
I nicely ask for his help to find if anyone ever send to this same address that might provide numbers before and ask him if they willing to return the parcel to me if parcel is not delivered by paying the same amount. He said he'll call back later again.
Then I tried to call back the number which dunno why it wasn't connected, so I called KK Gdex to ask them to help me check if I paid deposit first, of return delivery for the parcel if failed to be received.
Just as soon I put down the phone and went to my pc to check for phone numbers again or even ask everyone help in fb...
Adam's msn stated a phone number.
I was like..AHHHHHHHH...is that what I think it is?
I asked Adam is that YG entertainment's phone number?
He said yes. Then he gave me a link to confirm it.
AHhhhHHhhHHHhhHHH!!!!!!
He saved my day!!!
Adam! You're godlike! You're like Knight in shinning armour oh!
How could he find something so easily when i spend days and couldn't get anything out of it?
Hereby, I want to thank Adam for helping me to find YG entertainment number although he's superbusy everyday and let me borrow his time ^^
I quickly called back KK Gdex and told them the good news of the phone number.
I think half an hour later, KL Gdex called me again saying that my parcel is confirmed to be send back to KK. I was like, "Huh???"
I told him I already have the numbers and told KK Gdex, didn't they informed him?
Sadly, no but LUCKILY he called me again for last confirmation. I really want to thank him for that. He took the number and kindly proceed my parcel to South Korea!!
Seoul~ My Parcel is going to arrive at GD's hand! Absolutely!
I really wanna thanks everyone that helped me through this parcel sending process (my first parcel sending). Gdex workers, thank you!
I don't know how I kept my calm and in my mind really have the thought that my parcel will succeed arrived at GD's hand no matter what.
I nicely tell the person on the phone that I was aware of the problem previously but KK side worker decided helped me when I told them that I decided to try my luck for the parcel to arrive at YG entertainment's company.
Through explaining and understanding, the worker nicely said that he'll call back and see what he can do.
In my head suddenly I thought of Adam. Then I quickly sms Adam for help that I really couldn't find YG entertainment number online by myself.
Adam already did miracle for providing me the correct address for YG entertainment, so I must try my luck.
The second time KL Gdex called back saying they really couldn't proceed my parcel again like the first time and telling me that the parcel will be send back to KK.
I nicely ask for his help to find if anyone ever send to this same address that might provide numbers before and ask him if they willing to return the parcel to me if parcel is not delivered by paying the same amount. He said he'll call back later again.
Then I tried to call back the number which dunno why it wasn't connected, so I called KK Gdex to ask them to help me check if I paid deposit first, of return delivery for the parcel if failed to be received.
Just as soon I put down the phone and went to my pc to check for phone numbers again or even ask everyone help in fb...
Adam's msn stated a phone number.
I was like..AHHHHHHHH...is that what I think it is?
I asked Adam is that YG entertainment's phone number?
He said yes. Then he gave me a link to confirm it.
AHhhhHHhhHHHhhHHH!!!!!!
He saved my day!!!
Adam! You're godlike! You're like Knight in shinning armour oh!
How could he find something so easily when i spend days and couldn't get anything out of it?
Hereby, I want to thank Adam for helping me to find YG entertainment number although he's superbusy everyday and let me borrow his time ^^
I quickly called back KK Gdex and told them the good news of the phone number.
I think half an hour later, KL Gdex called me again saying that my parcel is confirmed to be send back to KK. I was like, "Huh???"
I told him I already have the numbers and told KK Gdex, didn't they informed him?
Sadly, no but LUCKILY he called me again for last confirmation. I really want to thank him for that. He took the number and kindly proceed my parcel to South Korea!!
Seoul~ My Parcel is going to arrive at GD's hand! Absolutely!
I really wanna thanks everyone that helped me through this parcel sending process (my first parcel sending). Gdex workers, thank you!
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Gratitude
I am grateful for the beautiful eyes that can see things and view the spectrum of splendid colours everyday.
I am grateful for the smile that i have that makes people likes me and like to be friends with me.
I am grateful for nose that stay in shape and smell wonderful aroma everyday.
I am grateful for my ear that can listen to the sound of rain, and music that makes me happy.
I am grateful for my skin that stay strong even I didn't pamper them enough yet for I will love them more and more everyday.
I am grateful for my mother that loves me dearly unconditionally.
I am grateful for my families and friends that makes me feel loving care so I can face the world bravely everyday.
I am grateful for my dog, wangzi that continue stay cute and living strong.
I am grateful for the houses that I have that kept me safe and secure everyday.
I am grateful for my simple car that brings me to anywhere I want.
I am grateful for the money I have so I can buy what I want and need.
I am grateful for my spirit that makes me stay strong in order to continue on my life.
I am grateful for the peaceful feeling that I have.
I am grateful that i have dreams that I can totally focus on and put all my heart in it from now onwards.
I am grateful for the smile that i have that makes people likes me and like to be friends with me.
I am grateful for nose that stay in shape and smell wonderful aroma everyday.
I am grateful for my ear that can listen to the sound of rain, and music that makes me happy.
I am grateful for my skin that stay strong even I didn't pamper them enough yet for I will love them more and more everyday.
I am grateful for my mother that loves me dearly unconditionally.
I am grateful for my families and friends that makes me feel loving care so I can face the world bravely everyday.
I am grateful for my dog, wangzi that continue stay cute and living strong.
I am grateful for the houses that I have that kept me safe and secure everyday.
I am grateful for my simple car that brings me to anywhere I want.
I am grateful for the money I have so I can buy what I want and need.
I am grateful for my spirit that makes me stay strong in order to continue on my life.
I am grateful for the peaceful feeling that I have.
I am grateful that i have dreams that I can totally focus on and put all my heart in it from now onwards.
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Portion
It's been one or two week I'm on treadmill for one hour everyday in same speed.
I won't increase the speed nor the minutes using it because i think it might built up muscle that I don't want.
My weight is still the same although the shape does look more better.
I think the only way I can get to my target point is to attack from my food area.
I still eat normally like I always does. Just my dinner is lesser portion now.
I need to cut to a really smaller portion from breakfast, lunch and dinner.
One thing arise..
craving..
how to beat that? i need to fight it no matter how temptation the craving is attacking me..
let's see in one month from now..is there any new changes to my weight and shape...
now, it's time to believe..
I can do it..
I can win over craving ^^
I won't increase the speed nor the minutes using it because i think it might built up muscle that I don't want.
My weight is still the same although the shape does look more better.
I think the only way I can get to my target point is to attack from my food area.
I still eat normally like I always does. Just my dinner is lesser portion now.
I need to cut to a really smaller portion from breakfast, lunch and dinner.
One thing arise..
craving..
how to beat that? i need to fight it no matter how temptation the craving is attacking me..
let's see in one month from now..is there any new changes to my weight and shape...
now, it's time to believe..
I can do it..
I can win over craving ^^
Friday, April 22, 2011
Love
I decided to answer this because...
When I mentioned the word that I love GD.
Most of my friends goes like...
That is not love.
Well, then what is love means to you?
Tell me?
Do I have to date the person to love a person?
Do I have to have sex with a person to love him?
Do I have to know the person in real only I can say I love him?
Tell me?
Then tell me...
Do you love your god?
Have you ever date your god?
Do you know your god in real person face to face?
You get what i mean..okay?
FYI,
I've been dating since 12 yrs old and I know what is the differences between like and love, or so.
I had many craziness over idols, superstar, movie star before..I know the differences okay.
I am fan of Stephen Chow almost my whole life (I'm 30 now :p)
I said i love GD now at this moment! You can't deal with it? Don't bother..you're not me. You don't have to love him or believe my words. You can think I'm stupid or crazy.
I really never seen such a beautiful perfect person inside out before in my life. His face, his voice, his style and everything.
Yes, i don't know him in real life. I only judge him by all the interviews, live TV, some caught moments in his life from over youtube. He is such a humble and decent person. Such a gentleman, for he reacts well to ladies request or comment.
Why do I say so? Go watch the making of 'The leader' where CL say she's hungry. Without much thoughts, GD stands up and goes out to buy food for her. Try you tell many guys out there that you're hungry, see how many of them does that? Most probably just say 'go eat something lah' (that's most of the guy around me okay).
I say I love him doesn't mean I want to do anything crazy to him. I just wished that He lived his life that he wanted to and doing the things that he loved and i support all that I can like buying his CD or etc.
If Mother Theressa said she love GD, no one will doubt right??!?!?
AHA...please stop doubting me and trying to tell me what is love...thank you.
When I mentioned the word that I love GD.
Most of my friends goes like...
That is not love.
Well, then what is love means to you?
Tell me?
Do I have to date the person to love a person?
Do I have to have sex with a person to love him?
Do I have to know the person in real only I can say I love him?
Tell me?
Then tell me...
Do you love your god?
Have you ever date your god?
Do you know your god in real person face to face?
You get what i mean..okay?
FYI,
I've been dating since 12 yrs old and I know what is the differences between like and love, or so.
I had many craziness over idols, superstar, movie star before..I know the differences okay.
I am fan of Stephen Chow almost my whole life (I'm 30 now :p)
I said i love GD now at this moment! You can't deal with it? Don't bother..you're not me. You don't have to love him or believe my words. You can think I'm stupid or crazy.
I really never seen such a beautiful perfect person inside out before in my life. His face, his voice, his style and everything.
Yes, i don't know him in real life. I only judge him by all the interviews, live TV, some caught moments in his life from over youtube. He is such a humble and decent person. Such a gentleman, for he reacts well to ladies request or comment.
Why do I say so? Go watch the making of 'The leader' where CL say she's hungry. Without much thoughts, GD stands up and goes out to buy food for her. Try you tell many guys out there that you're hungry, see how many of them does that? Most probably just say 'go eat something lah' (that's most of the guy around me okay).
I say I love him doesn't mean I want to do anything crazy to him. I just wished that He lived his life that he wanted to and doing the things that he loved and i support all that I can like buying his CD or etc.
If Mother Theressa said she love GD, no one will doubt right??!?!?
AHA...please stop doubting me and trying to tell me what is love...thank you.
Broccoli Out of Stock because of Raining Season?
Just last two week ago...
I bought broccoli that cost only RM5.
Yesterday, I went to the same stall, same guy...
he told me...
RM9.
I goes like, "WHAT?!' but you sold me RM5 last week(i lied so it sound more near to date)"
The guy, "Ya, I know..but it's raining season. The broccoli is almost out of stocks. You see I'm the only stall which selling this."
Damn, he's right about the only stall selling that.
I replied, "But..RM9?? How about some discount?"
He hesitated, "Okay..RM8"
I have no choice and lazy to go other place to look for broccoli and i paid him.
I'm still doubting him reason of raining season causing no broccoli..is that real? someone please enlighten me.
I bought broccoli that cost only RM5.
Yesterday, I went to the same stall, same guy...
he told me...
RM9.
I goes like, "WHAT?!' but you sold me RM5 last week(i lied so it sound more near to date)"
The guy, "Ya, I know..but it's raining season. The broccoli is almost out of stocks. You see I'm the only stall which selling this."
Damn, he's right about the only stall selling that.
I replied, "But..RM9?? How about some discount?"
He hesitated, "Okay..RM8"
I have no choice and lazy to go other place to look for broccoli and i paid him.
I'm still doubting him reason of raining season causing no broccoli..is that real? someone please enlighten me.
Cooking
http://gdbbforever.blogspot.com/2011/02/news-bigbangs-g-dragon-top-seungri.html#more
Ah..I really love this GDBB site. Whoever wrote it did an excellent job!
From the post I share..
I found out a lot information on what kind of girls does GD likes.
Seems that he likes girl that can do mostly anything.
He likes someone can cook. He love stew, i think korean stew which i'm not familiar with what is that.
Sadly..to think of that...
I used to love cooking so much. Watching the drama, 'Little Nyonya' Singapore's series...inspired me to cook many nyonya food. I remember one episode when she's trying to cook assam beehoon, i cook the same thing that night, lol.
I have so much fun trying to cook Tom Yam with grilled tiger prawn, nasi lemak, sambal chilli, Phoenix Ball, etc. Almost every day I cook something different. It was great memories learning how to cook. I have a great teacher, my dearest aunt Catherine.
Thanks to the tv show, AFC I really learned a lot.
Why am I feeling so sad? I can't eat those delicious food anymore.
Nowadays, I just simply stir-fried vegetable with oyster sauce for dinner. I couldn't cook something too nice at night,if not i will wanna eat them all. Temptation is hard to resist.
The good thing is...i saved a lot of money from buying ingredients. LOL.
I still love cooking for others, despite I can't eat much myself already.
Hopefully my cooking skill doesn't go rusty when I need it someday to cook for someone important...
Ah..I really love this GDBB site. Whoever wrote it did an excellent job!
From the post I share..
I found out a lot information on what kind of girls does GD likes.
Seems that he likes girl that can do mostly anything.
He likes someone can cook. He love stew, i think korean stew which i'm not familiar with what is that.
Sadly..to think of that...
I used to love cooking so much. Watching the drama, 'Little Nyonya' Singapore's series...inspired me to cook many nyonya food. I remember one episode when she's trying to cook assam beehoon, i cook the same thing that night, lol.
I have so much fun trying to cook Tom Yam with grilled tiger prawn, nasi lemak, sambal chilli, Phoenix Ball, etc. Almost every day I cook something different. It was great memories learning how to cook. I have a great teacher, my dearest aunt Catherine.
Thanks to the tv show, AFC I really learned a lot.
Why am I feeling so sad? I can't eat those delicious food anymore.
Nowadays, I just simply stir-fried vegetable with oyster sauce for dinner. I couldn't cook something too nice at night,if not i will wanna eat them all. Temptation is hard to resist.
The good thing is...i saved a lot of money from buying ingredients. LOL.
I still love cooking for others, despite I can't eat much myself already.
Hopefully my cooking skill doesn't go rusty when I need it someday to cook for someone important...
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Esmeralda June
This is post is all about what Esmeralda June(Aiiko to me) wrote de stuff before that I think should be remembered well.
April 9, 2011 at 12:50pm:
" Always love someone as if she/he is your first love, so you wont miss any best part of it."
Saturday, April 16, 2011 at 12:41pm:
Aiiko : " The world is our stage, the future is in our hand."
Sunday, April 17, 2011 at 7:57am:
Aiiko: " I always before you, so think about self before others."
Monday, April 18, 2011 at 7:54am:
Aiiko: " The biggest enemy is not others, is yourself...."
Tuesday, April 19, 2011 at 11:43pm:
Aiiko: " Never say never, cause it might turn out to be ever."
Wednesday, April 20, 2011 at 5:42pm:
Aiiko :" Every ending is a new beginning."
Thursday, April 21, 2011 at 7:40am:
Aiiko :" Do good and fear nobody."
April 9, 2011 at 12:50pm:
" Always love someone as if she/he is your first love, so you wont miss any best part of it."
Saturday, April 16, 2011 at 12:41pm:
Aiiko : " The world is our stage, the future is in our hand."
Sunday, April 17, 2011 at 7:57am:
Aiiko: " I always before you, so think about self before others."
Monday, April 18, 2011 at 7:54am:
Aiiko: " The biggest enemy is not others, is yourself...."
Tuesday, April 19, 2011 at 11:43pm:
Aiiko: " Never say never, cause it might turn out to be ever."
Wednesday, April 20, 2011 at 5:42pm:
Aiiko :" Every ending is a new beginning."
Thursday, April 21, 2011 at 7:40am:
Aiiko :" Do good and fear nobody."
Sunday, April 17, 2011
GD gift bracelet
Yesterday, finally went over the shop to watch how the machine press on the stones. The result was not too bad. Some of the stones still not in the right places, but the shop owner, Adien told me I can't hope for perfection unless i use hand one by one sticks using lighter. I remember having finger blister doing friend's name using lighter. It ain't fun. I still have to use lighter on the bigger rectangular stone because it was higher a lot than the surrounding small stones.
This is the base design before anything was created.
Sorry that I didn't have make up on and my hair looks weird.
This is the crystal burns on the velvet.
This is one part of the imperfection. The stones has moved from it's original spacing causing collides, I can't see it till it was pressed through machine. I can't retouch it because it will peel off the orignal velvet's fur at the below.
Next I have to sew it on the leather which is originally suppose to be just using leather. I didn't know the stones can't stick on smoother surface(it will be easily dropped out).
This is the done product. I started doing all the sewing and things around 9pm till 3am. I'm dead tired, my eyes strained, my fingers were all poked by the needle and also sore from sewing.
It is real big for my hand. I'm not sure what's the size of GD wrist.
This morning, I add some string to the chains because the chain was loose and this make the bracelet shorter.
Ah..finished. I don't know he'll like or not. Well, it's just a gift sincerely from my heart. I just hope he will received it when I mailed it because I heard they simply don't check fan mail and threw it away. If GD open liao and threw it, I have nothing to say but if simply anyone..no~~~
p/s: ah!!! i just notice i think i punch wrong hole for the chains from my original design. NOOO...>.<'''''''''
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OH I remember why i punch the hole for the chain there! Because I can't cut the steel chain, I need to make shorter size end up choose that place for punching hole. ah....
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Thank you note:
Thanks to myself for having this scrazy feel to do something I have long forgotten.
Thanks to Aiiko for all the emotional supports that given to me anytime I needed.
Thanks to Adien, the shop owner of 'Playground' for renting me to use his hot machine.
Thanks to Theresa, even with her painful leg that day went around town with me to search for materials.
Thanks to Mom for saying what a great job I've done.
This is the base design before anything was created.
Sorry that I didn't have make up on and my hair looks weird.
This is the crystal burns on the velvet.
This is one part of the imperfection. The stones has moved from it's original spacing causing collides, I can't see it till it was pressed through machine. I can't retouch it because it will peel off the orignal velvet's fur at the below.
Next I have to sew it on the leather which is originally suppose to be just using leather. I didn't know the stones can't stick on smoother surface(it will be easily dropped out).
This is the done product. I started doing all the sewing and things around 9pm till 3am. I'm dead tired, my eyes strained, my fingers were all poked by the needle and also sore from sewing.
It is real big for my hand. I'm not sure what's the size of GD wrist.
This morning, I add some string to the chains because the chain was loose and this make the bracelet shorter.
Ah..finished. I don't know he'll like or not. Well, it's just a gift sincerely from my heart. I just hope he will received it when I mailed it because I heard they simply don't check fan mail and threw it away. If GD open liao and threw it, I have nothing to say but if simply anyone..no~~~
p/s: ah!!! i just notice i think i punch wrong hole for the chains from my original design. NOOO...>.<'''''''''
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OH I remember why i punch the hole for the chain there! Because I can't cut the steel chain, I need to make shorter size end up choose that place for punching hole. ah....
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Thank you note:
Thanks to myself for having this scrazy feel to do something I have long forgotten.
Thanks to Aiiko for all the emotional supports that given to me anytime I needed.
Thanks to Adien, the shop owner of 'Playground' for renting me to use his hot machine.
Thanks to Theresa, even with her painful leg that day went around town with me to search for materials.
Thanks to Mom for saying what a great job I've done.
Friday, April 15, 2011
Eyes tired
Wearing my cny first day dress..my friend told me my skirt really too thin..and i should wear something skin colour skirt not a pink short inside..looks like my panty so big...hahahaahha
Now, really feel ashamed wearing that dress to so many places before.
Around 3pm, I went to 'Playground' to do the bling bling for gd bracelet. The first time design was finished then it was knocked out of shape by someone. I don't know why I didn't shout at the person, I was very calm just annoyed that I hafta redo again. I think it's all written on my face that I was ANNOYED. lol
Second time design, finished around 6pm...then I found out I need to put a piece of plastic type of base to avoid the stick directly to my design paper! hmm...
While slowly taking out stuck crystals from the sticker that is ruined, I used up 45 minutes to rearrange the crystals and finish the design.
Now, I hafta wait tomorrow to pick it up because it need to be pressed for a day to have a better result.
One thing i learned from this experience is...my eyes are very tired! It need to focus nonstop. My hand need to be very still, sometimes just a bit wrong move, the whole crystal moved out of shape. If not necessary, I don't think I wanna do this anymore in the time being.
It's all for GD so I'm okay. I really hope he will get it when it's finished and sent out to him. I also hope he'll like it.
It's still long way to go before the end product. Jia you~
Now, really feel ashamed wearing that dress to so many places before.
Around 3pm, I went to 'Playground' to do the bling bling for gd bracelet. The first time design was finished then it was knocked out of shape by someone. I don't know why I didn't shout at the person, I was very calm just annoyed that I hafta redo again. I think it's all written on my face that I was ANNOYED. lol
Second time design, finished around 6pm...then I found out I need to put a piece of plastic type of base to avoid the stick directly to my design paper! hmm...
While slowly taking out stuck crystals from the sticker that is ruined, I used up 45 minutes to rearrange the crystals and finish the design.
Now, I hafta wait tomorrow to pick it up because it need to be pressed for a day to have a better result.
One thing i learned from this experience is...my eyes are very tired! It need to focus nonstop. My hand need to be very still, sometimes just a bit wrong move, the whole crystal moved out of shape. If not necessary, I don't think I wanna do this anymore in the time being.
It's all for GD so I'm okay. I really hope he will get it when it's finished and sent out to him. I also hope he'll like it.
It's still long way to go before the end product. Jia you~
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Motivation by Yume~~~ I will try my best~~
After hearing my dear Yume told me that she hit 60kg already, I was so please with her. Is like "wow~ she make it~~" But yet she told me that her next gold will be 55kg, I wish her all the best to hit the target soon.
That night, she kept encourage me to start my exercise bla bla bla~~~ I really touch and rock by her words when she told me that her cousin said " To lost weight, there is never tomorrow is today." Very classical example. haha... well this really brain wash me.
I went to join the gym today, and start exercise after i join it. How cool is that, first day join I did exercise for 2 and half hours. wooo~~ hooo~~ And good thing is my housemate also join the same gym with me, so we both can go there together. hehe..
Thanks Yume being there to support me~ Love her dearly~ Lets work hard together~
Umbrella
I think umbrella is uncool.
I think those people holding umbrella is aunty or old people.
I rather go dripping wet than holding an umbrella when it's raining.
I rather be caught dead than holding an umbrella. That's me before...
I found out...
My aunt age of 53 yrs old...look like 40ish. Late forties maybe like 45-46. Her skin still look great even without make up. Not one single black spot...easily notice uneven tone skin. none. I have more wrinkles than her now..=.=
Her secret?
She carries umbrella whenever she goes. Especially sunny day. Those with UV block umbrella.
Now, no matter how much I hate umbrella before. I will love umbrella. I will make it umbrella a trend. I will carry one around every time that i can. :p
You think it's uncool? Wait till you're 50 and you see your face will a lot of dark spot like leopard, trying to waste so much money to get whitening product to lightening. I say, don't wait till it was too late honey. (I speak from observing okay, my other aunts that don't carry umbrella)
I think those people holding umbrella is aunty or old people.
I rather go dripping wet than holding an umbrella when it's raining.
I rather be caught dead than holding an umbrella. That's me before...
I found out...
My aunt age of 53 yrs old...look like 40ish. Late forties maybe like 45-46. Her skin still look great even without make up. Not one single black spot...easily notice uneven tone skin. none. I have more wrinkles than her now..=.=
Her secret?
She carries umbrella whenever she goes. Especially sunny day. Those with UV block umbrella.
Now, no matter how much I hate umbrella before. I will love umbrella. I will make it umbrella a trend. I will carry one around every time that i can. :p
You think it's uncool? Wait till you're 50 and you see your face will a lot of dark spot like leopard, trying to waste so much money to get whitening product to lightening. I say, don't wait till it was too late honey. (I speak from observing okay, my other aunts that don't carry umbrella)
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
60.0kg!
Clean 60kg lol.
I don't know when it will be lower than 60kg but i'm looking forward to it :)
My dear fren congrats me.
I told her, It's really not an easy job.
It takes a lot of mind power.
Everyday feel dreadful to exercise on the treadmill.
60 minutes nowadays really felt too long.
I keep on telling myself another 5 mins, another 5 mins, another 5 mins.
I tell my mind, go! go! go! even though my eyes secretly looking at the timer.
Time pass by so slow unless I able to focus truly at the drama.
Yes, i must exercise with something on the tv. Drama is my favourite cause most of them around 60 minutes. It really helps a lot in taking away the attention and suffering.
When the 60 minutes reach, I'm happily press 'stop' button and voila...have a nice day ahead~
Clean 60kg lol.
I don't know when it will be lower than 60kg but i'm looking forward to it :)
My dear fren congrats me.
I told her, It's really not an easy job.
It takes a lot of mind power.
Everyday feel dreadful to exercise on the treadmill.
60 minutes nowadays really felt too long.
I keep on telling myself another 5 mins, another 5 mins, another 5 mins.
I tell my mind, go! go! go! even though my eyes secretly looking at the timer.
Time pass by so slow unless I able to focus truly at the drama.
Yes, i must exercise with something on the tv. Drama is my favourite cause most of them around 60 minutes. It really helps a lot in taking away the attention and suffering.
When the 60 minutes reach, I'm happily press 'stop' button and voila...have a nice day ahead~
Monday, April 11, 2011
Never Say Never
Inspired by Justin Biebier song named, 'Never say Never' for the movie 'The Karate Kid' starred by Jaden Smith & Jackie Chan.
Remember, Never say Never to your dream.
Believe in yourself. I will believe in myself also.
Japan radioactive & nuclear plant, makes me feel that world is on dangerous line. Maybe the end is near, so I can't waste my time feeling down.
I must focus on what I really wanted. The first step is always hard, but once the first step has started...I believe there's next step to go on.
Today evening while driving, I saw square patch of rainbow just like painting. Later, the sunset caused the whole sky looks like golden marshmallow. So beautiful. I thanked god for this very beautiful moment to watch. For I hope for more to come.
The lowest weight for today is 60.4kg. :)
p/s: I heard my mom say America got worm's rain. Eww...That's how weird the world is now.
Remember, Never say Never to your dream.
Believe in yourself. I will believe in myself also.
Japan radioactive & nuclear plant, makes me feel that world is on dangerous line. Maybe the end is near, so I can't waste my time feeling down.
I must focus on what I really wanted. The first step is always hard, but once the first step has started...I believe there's next step to go on.
Today evening while driving, I saw square patch of rainbow just like painting. Later, the sunset caused the whole sky looks like golden marshmallow. So beautiful. I thanked god for this very beautiful moment to watch. For I hope for more to come.
The lowest weight for today is 60.4kg. :)
p/s: I heard my mom say America got worm's rain. Eww...That's how weird the world is now.
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Hit 60kg
Today...
I finally break the 61kg record. I weighted 60.5kg today. :)
Although the ideal weight should be 50-55kg, I'll strive to at least 55kg.
It took me almost 6 months to shake off 10kg and feeling great.
My Arm, Thigh & Stomach still a lot of work if compare to magazine's model but, i am not running to be a model eh.
Really feels like yesterday I was still 70kg and feel heavy to move around. My stamina got better as i goes up the stairs and on the treadmill. The most important thing is the numbness temporary gone. Before this, I start to have numbness from my finger increased to my whole hand. I can't even hold chopstick or drive. My Leg also start to numb, but i still ignore the feel. When I started panicked is when my face also gone numb. It a funny thing when you love food so much, eat and eat until you found out you have very high cholesterol and you have to do something about it. I know it's either I exercised to increase the blood flow or I take pills to control it. I vowed to myself, not to simply take pills like last time anymore. The only option left is exercise. From 15 mins to 30 mins. From once a week to 3 times a week. Now, surprisingly I manage to follow new routine for 60 mins everyday. Everyday I hafta repeat and tell myself. You can do it today. You promised yourself. Well, to the people out there that want to have a healthier body, believe in yourself that you are the only one that can change yourself. Take the first step to the jogging path or even treadmill at gym or at home. Reward yourself if you think you have done enough for that day. Slowly, you will understand, doing that exercise is already a reward.
This is my one and only life. I will live the best I can! +u+u
I finally break the 61kg record. I weighted 60.5kg today. :)
Although the ideal weight should be 50-55kg, I'll strive to at least 55kg.
It took me almost 6 months to shake off 10kg and feeling great.
My Arm, Thigh & Stomach still a lot of work if compare to magazine's model but, i am not running to be a model eh.
Really feels like yesterday I was still 70kg and feel heavy to move around. My stamina got better as i goes up the stairs and on the treadmill. The most important thing is the numbness temporary gone. Before this, I start to have numbness from my finger increased to my whole hand. I can't even hold chopstick or drive. My Leg also start to numb, but i still ignore the feel. When I started panicked is when my face also gone numb. It a funny thing when you love food so much, eat and eat until you found out you have very high cholesterol and you have to do something about it. I know it's either I exercised to increase the blood flow or I take pills to control it. I vowed to myself, not to simply take pills like last time anymore. The only option left is exercise. From 15 mins to 30 mins. From once a week to 3 times a week. Now, surprisingly I manage to follow new routine for 60 mins everyday. Everyday I hafta repeat and tell myself. You can do it today. You promised yourself. Well, to the people out there that want to have a healthier body, believe in yourself that you are the only one that can change yourself. Take the first step to the jogging path or even treadmill at gym or at home. Reward yourself if you think you have done enough for that day. Slowly, you will understand, doing that exercise is already a reward.
This is my one and only life. I will live the best I can! +u+u
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
G Dragon @ Kwon Ji Yong
G.D / G Dragon / Kwon Ji Yong
I am totally crazy/ in-love/ admire over this boy.
How do I first known about him?
Funny thing is, recently I watched a parody of secret garden acted by Big Bang. GD acted as Ha Ji Won's character Gil Ra Im, a dancer girl in this parody. When I first saw his face, blond hair with that charming smile. I was thinking, who is this guy?
Then I slowly research about him. Found out about his name & his music video. Heartbreaker's video was so awesome and cool, that kind of fashionista guy I always like to see. Ah Boy music video music was too addictive, it won't went away for few days in my mind after I listen to it. I was like humming ,'remember back in the days' nonstop =.=
Then I tried to watched more of his music video and listen to his song. I even get to watched their pre-debut video. I was so awed by their passion & hard work in getting where they want to be. Really salute!
The more I see him, the more I like him. His face, is so perfect to me. Smile or not smile. Face with or without make up. All look so perfect. Even the slight deep scar on his left top near eyebrow there, also i find interesting. I am starting to wonder what's wrong with me.
His character is so cool, strong, confident, fun, good-hearted that I can simply judge by watching most of his video especially on the YGTV. I got so touched by the video when he heard CL was very hungry, he directly gets up and say he go buy some food. Such gentleman.
Sadly, he always say he's lonely in his song. I hope he will feel the love from me, all his fans out there and won't feel lonely anymore.
First time, it is my first time...that i really think an idol/singer that is perfect to me.
Saranghe~
p/s: I hope I don't sound like a crazy person obsessed over someone. I just can't help it, just wanna share my feel about him.
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The actual date when I first saw him from vid: 18th March 2011. Time is not correct as I reshare after I watched from other ppl's link.
110228 [ENG] Secret Big Bang (Secret Garden Parody) 1/2 【HD】
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I am totally crazy/ in-love/ admire over this boy.
How do I first known about him?
Funny thing is, recently I watched a parody of secret garden acted by Big Bang. GD acted as Ha Ji Won's character Gil Ra Im, a dancer girl in this parody. When I first saw his face, blond hair with that charming smile. I was thinking, who is this guy?
Then I slowly research about him. Found out about his name & his music video. Heartbreaker's video was so awesome and cool, that kind of fashionista guy I always like to see. Ah Boy music video music was too addictive, it won't went away for few days in my mind after I listen to it. I was like humming ,'remember back in the days' nonstop =.=
Then I tried to watched more of his music video and listen to his song. I even get to watched their pre-debut video. I was so awed by their passion & hard work in getting where they want to be. Really salute!
The more I see him, the more I like him. His face, is so perfect to me. Smile or not smile. Face with or without make up. All look so perfect. Even the slight deep scar on his left top near eyebrow there, also i find interesting. I am starting to wonder what's wrong with me.
His character is so cool, strong, confident, fun, good-hearted that I can simply judge by watching most of his video especially on the YGTV. I got so touched by the video when he heard CL was very hungry, he directly gets up and say he go buy some food. Such gentleman.
Sadly, he always say he's lonely in his song. I hope he will feel the love from me, all his fans out there and won't feel lonely anymore.
First time, it is my first time...that i really think an idol/singer that is perfect to me.
Saranghe~
p/s: I hope I don't sound like a crazy person obsessed over someone. I just can't help it, just wanna share my feel about him.
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The actual date when I first saw him from vid: 18th March 2011. Time is not correct as I reshare after I watched from other ppl's link.
110228 [ENG] Secret Big Bang (Secret Garden Parody) 1/2 【HD】
March 18 at 7:26pm · · Unlike · · Share
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