Bethamy in KL land

First Class, everyone in the class have a short introduction. I have learned that day what kind of first impression i gave to others.

Then with my good luck on pursuing part time job, i found job that i wanted at the first shop i asked. Learning to become bubble tea barista really interesting. From learning the chart and names in a week duration, i also learned brewing tea, cashier and understanding about bubble tea business.

Throughout the 3 months i have met a lot of 'interesting' people. It really makes me open my eyes to the world out there. Good or bad, i have learned something from all of them.

The most interesting part, my first time went to film set. i got to see what is it all about. Even I haven't learned how to say dialogue at my class yet, i got chances to say simple lines at first as an extra. With my luck, i was offered a short guest role on my second day as extra. So scared that i might not able to deliver well, i brave myself to try. I only could feel my heartbeat beating so loudly and my brain went blank before i say my first line. I keep telling myself, I can do it. I didn't know how well did i perform but i hope it fit what the film wants. I only feel that the whole filming was trying to go in fast speed as they want to be fast in finishing the filming. Trying to catch up with the beat, i don't know that is right or wrong for acting.

Second memorable part, i took part in public audition of a movie with a friend from acting class. We reached early, so i took my chances and went on the empty stage to clear my nervous before the whole thing began. This really help. i felt at place when we're the first one who went on stage. I did my best and i can see and hear the laughter from audience and from the judges. So far I have not received any news from them but I learned about that i need to prepare music and speak directly to microphone.

The are so many minor details that from new friends, job, acting chances, and my personal emotion that I don't know where to start...so i'll keep that in my own memories :)

No matter how, i am so grateful that i got to live that 3 months of wonderful adventure that i always dream of. It is a start i know to something more beautiful. I believe i will embark on more adventure that I'll be glad be on. To my dream, here i come to you!

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update on 22 Nov 2012.

Sorry if my stories wasn't as interesting as i plan to write it. Maybe i wasn't feeling so excited when i wrote that. Today, i felt a great moment of blessing. I'm truly thankful for all i have been through. To able to take the first step towards things i always wanted to do but there's an invisible wall that have been stopping my courage. Without my great change of heart will, i think i'll never be where i wanted now. Taking the steps toward my dreams. It might not be something big but it meant a lot to me. From embark in learning how to act journey, to actual acting experiences, learning korean language at the moment. Understanding how to brew a good cup of bubble tea. Now taking interesting in making clay art. Life is really something interesting and unpredictable. Enjoy it while we can. I want to live to my fullest and accepting every possibilities. Live life with no regrets. Today what you do, is what you created for yourself tomorrow. I won't stop my footstep, even how tired i am. I can take a rest but i will continue my journey till the very end.

我突然很感性的想写东西。

I wanted to update this blog for the beautiful 3 months i spend at KL before this. Sorry that i never got to write it yet..will try to write about it soon.

Now, i want to write about this exact moment about what i feel.

I am currently studying korean language at Korea Plaza, KL. I just realize it an only 10 classes course for level 1. I really need to appreciate more the class by studying more everyday but i seems to be slow and catch up slow. But it's a good start that I have learned and i won't stop learning till i mastered it.

My dream goal. It feel so far...untouchable. Do i really want to reach there anymore? But i can't forget the feeling when i am hopeless without any dream at all. I was a really scary place that I don't want to pay visit anymore. Maybe I need more courage and hope at this moment to know that I will reach there somehow. i believe god only give me the best, more than i ever wanted. And so with this believe, everyone that i met, everything that i go through must have a reason and lesson to learn. When I doubt myself, i hate that i am feeling that way. Still, there are just times when i'm feeling low that i'm trying very hard to pick up myself. I envy people that have strong faith and emotion that they able to control well. I know i have more yet to learn.

Love. Talking about love. it's been a real long time that I ever had a relationship. There are times that I think i don't need that kind of love, but there are times that I wished i have love so I have someone to hold to. I don't know if i ever find love again. Will i exchange dream for love? I don't know...maybe..maybe not.

What I can do with my life since i've decide to live it to the fullest. Pardon my greediness towards life, that have not taken duty responsibility like other people. There are so many words that i can't just utter out like this. i wish for people to love me, understand me and care for me for real. Hope i get everything that i wished for.

I still want to thank people that still in my live that helped me to live until today. Without them, i think i have fallen long time ago. Thank god for blessing me.